With so many failed attempts already to
leave her abuser, she knew she had to get it right this time. She had driven across the country several
times to break that heart wrenching pull to go back but still went back only
for more heartbreak. She couldn’t take
any more of the control issues to the point of having to present a receipt for
any money spent. She was told how to
dress, what to eat and was put down constantly.
The hate and anger he had for his parents spilled over into everything
in their lives. The mind said leave, the heart said stay and listening to the
mind caused deep pain but also showed a huge sense of reality. Promising herself never again to have this
kind of pain in her life, she pulled away in her Jeep.
The first 2 days on the road she couldn’t
stop wondering why he didn’t want the marriage to work when the strangest thing
happened. It was about noon on a pretty,
sunny day and there was a flash of light in the sky for about a fraction of a
second as a thought went through her mind that explained it all and the pieces
fell together. She didn’t want to
believe it at first because her mind just didn’t work in the way that was just
presented to her. There was someone else
and it wasn’t another woman! She had to
pull over to let this sink in and when it did, total understanding set in as
did freedom. It was an epiphany if ever
there was one.
The next day feeling totally drained yet
set free she stopped and bought some white shoe polish and some good traveling
music starting with Jackson Brown and Willy Nelson. In realizing she could make her own decisions
again, she put a fast foot forward doing just that! On the Jeep windows she had a good time,
“Make A Hole, Coming Thru”, “Woman Driver, Fear This”, “Nova Scotia Or Bust”
and “Don’t Bother Me, I’m Partying” were her traveling mottos. That night she stopped at a motel which had
live music and treated herself to some wine, a nice long hot bath, a lobster
supper and then took herself dancing.
Except for the long hot bath she had not been allowed to indulge in the
others. This night was all about
indulging!
She was a born traveler and was loving
being able to stop when and where she wanted when she saw an old abandoned farm
building just covered in beautiful vines off the highway. She found her way to it and was taking
photographs when she saw a crop duster off in the distance. Being a pilot, she
rushed to the location where she last saw the plane go down but not come back
up. Once there, she just sat on the hood
of the Jeep and watched the crew refill the crop duster while the pilot sat in
the plane. Next thing she knew, he was walking
towards her and they started talking and he said he needed another pilot as the
work was piling up faster than he could handle it. He was offering her a job to fly like a crazy
person and actually get paid for it! Oh
boy did she want it bad too! Had this
offer come at another time she would’ve been all over it, but she knew she had
some work to do on herself. She wanted
to go home and Arkansas was just too hot and humid for her. He understood but gave her his card anyway in
case she changed her mind and went to his plane. He took off and she watched as he turned and was
flying back towards her, lower and lower and rocked his wings!
Published by Polar
Expressions Publishing, British Columbia, Canada, Dec. 2013
polarexpressions.ca
The Sun Shall Rise,
Page 138
Copyright © MMXIV Juanita Sullivan. All Rights Reserved
Copyright © MMXIV Juanita Sullivan. All Rights Reserved
